Eat, Pray, IF

Seriously, isn’t that what it feels like? It’s like having a sixth sense or something, and not in a good way, right? I mean, what is the trick to getting IF off the brain…once in a while!  Between the pregnancy dreams, baby showers, and the daily requirement of winding myself up in order to function, is there anything at the...

Things their mother should’ve told them

        We all know the feeling of desperately wanting to get pregnant, and being forced to witness the pregnancies of those around us, friends, colleagues, 12-year olds, homeless people, pretty much everybody else who wants to, and even those who don’t! Ugh!!!!! Is there a better word for this- It’s just maddening. One of...

Trapped in a Human Suit

Does anyone feel like a fuckin’ alien for be not being able to have a baby? I mean really, isn’t this like a right of passage for any woman who wants to have a child? I must be an alien trapped in a human body, but with an alien’s uterus no doubt!  Here’s what I don’t get-why give me the parts if they’re not...

The Gift that Keeps on Giving…

Ummmmm-ok, was my reaction after our first meeting with the egg donation people (EDP), I don’t know what else to call them even though that seems so vanilla-but, that’s what they are, right? I gotta say, this was an experience for the books–listening to a woman with an elevator pitch so precise with just the right combination of...

Running on Empty Ovaries

Hey everyone!  One of my readers recently let me know that my posts just haven’t been the same lately, not as heartfelt, or complete with my usual ramblings of self pity and impending emotional catastrophe. I kinda miss it to. All that positive thinking, trying to look on the bright side of things, didn’t really work out so much....

If you can’t beat em’…

I have to say, there is really nothing quite as lovely as seeing my “fertility” friends finally get themselves knocked up. I was sitting around a large table at Starbucks last night with about 10 girlfriends, enjoying the silliness and the chatter going back and forth.  I secretly knew that one of my friends at the table is pregnant,...

And the hits just keep on comin…

There are some things you just simply cannot say no to, like attending your boss’s baby shower-ouch! Would it be rude to bring my own vodka? I know I keep harping on this baby shower and pregnant boss sob story but it’s in my face every single day….and now this shower! So, in addition to the 40 hours a week that I spend with...

The Money Train

  If you think it, will it come? Money….that is. Lets face it, the exorbitant, racket of a cost that is necessary to go through IVF is basically non-negotiable and for most of us, crippling, financially crippling. So, if you have been lucky enough to survive the financial bombshell, the depleting of your savings, and the embarrassment of...

9 Lives?

I’ve noticed that our little IF community feels kind of like a pack, or at least we treat each other with that sort of “pack” mentality that you see with dogs and cats. We have a pack, 2 dogs and 2 cats and there’s safety in a group, don’t you think? After one of our cats spent the night tossing her cookies all over...

IF and Paradise?

My mom used to say to me, ”trouble in paradise dear?” She was referring to our once “normal” relationship. Take a look at this picture, the proportions are not too far off…we should look pretty close to this by the time we have a family, if ever. Anyone relate?  I just had a birthday a couple weeks ago, another...